I'll Fly Away.

have i ever told you how much i enjoy college?

on days that i don't have college, i WISH i had college..

one of the best decisions of my life.

this was my favorite performance from this weeks concert practice.

People here are so talented.

real love.

 i LOVE my room. 

like real love.

like the way a rabbit loves lettuce.

like the way my mum loves making sugar-less cakes.

like the way i love sorting DVDs.

and like the way pancakes taste better with ice-cream.

you NEED to see my room.

box head.

the past few days have been crazy, crazily busy that is. 

i'll tell you about it another time though , when i dont have so much homework.

i cut my hair today (again), i feel much better about it. 

it was grossly straight at the ends and made my head look like a box. 

i layered it, and (trying not to sound too boastful) found out i have a bit of a nack for cutting hair (: 

good times.

i love my friends.

intensover.

the intensive is over. 

well, i had my exam today. 

i think i did okay.

on track.

i dont think there has ever been a time in my life that i have accumulated so much information and crammed it into the space between my ears in such a short period of time. 

when they said "INTENSIVE", they really meant it did they ?

so here we are. everyday. trying to learn five years worth of theory, in five days.

impossible ? i think not. 

draining? stressful? overloaded? incredibly.

(maybe i SHOULD start listening to rap? im starting to look like that man in the picture)

on another (musical) note; i took my first sign language class today.

making my total hours spent in a classroom thirteen today (wesley and tafe).

ive made about fifteen new friends in the past few days, and i love making new friends. they are all such amazing people and i seriously  cant wait to spend my next few years getting to know them.

B. and i had an epiphany driving home from tafe;

that God is amazing and His plan in MY life is just starting to unfold; and its bloody (in the best context possible) exciting.

***

today life just felt good, you know ?

like my life is just beginning; and im on track. 

creative arts college.

oh.

 i was under the impression that this is what college was going to be like.

bye babies.

 i dont know if there are boundries as to what i am to say here. HOWEVER i do remind you that this site (although being publicly accessible to all those globally who have internet access) is for my personal thoughts, reflections and vent sessions.

***

Last night..

it was an abrupt and unexpected awakening to the fact that things do NOT always go as expected or planned. You see, for the past year i have worked hard to be ready. Ready take them by myself, and after three long years, i finally felt it. I finally felt like i was ready. I came into this year convinced that my time had come; that i would finally have a chance to do what i had been trained to do. But the reminder of reality always comes right on que. I had dreams and plans of where we were going to go this year. That i could be the one that they would continually come to, that we would grow up together and that i would be the one to witness how far they had come. I guess i can still do that. But all of it will be from a distance now, and all my dreams are put on hold. 

i suppose it is a blessing in disguise. But i've never known a blessing to hurt so much. Maybe it takes a while for the relief to set in and hopefully time will make my gratitude known. I guess He knows it better than I do, and this is what He has decided. 

***

I love talking to mother, she cried with me last night. 

It made me feel less stupid. 

She is not the best with words i'll admit, however last night she proved that with age comes wisdom and her words helped me realise that things probably turned out for the best. 

I was looking forward to the next five or more years with my girls, but i guess His plans are elsewhere for me.

practice run.

today was a very necessary unimportant day.

you see, i'll admit.. 

out of a group of people, i would defiantly NOT be voted most organised, nor do i stand out to be a ridiculously well planned out or efficient person.

 HOWEVER! when it comes to certain things in life, i turn into an overbearing, nazi of a control freak. 

***

Today was one of those days. 

i convinced a future peer of mine to join me on what i like to call a practice run. All we did was basically  act as if it was the first day of college and practiced getting there on time. Yes, i may seem like a dork, but i like to know what im doing when it comes to important appointments (like the first day of college which i think sets a bar for the rest of my time there).  This adventure meant i needed to wake up at six (which failed cause i learnt how to turn off my alarm whilst still sleeping) and resulted in me getting up at seven and only having six minutes to get ready which i then blame for me getting on the wrong train. But other than both minor glitches, the day was all smooth sailing. 

Hello college.

(and yes, i found my future peigon hole.)

with people.

sometimes i wish i could spend time with people 

            

                       alone

                                                        you know ?

look for the girl in the red hat.

i have fallen in love

with this movie.

- Elizabethtown.

It is I, The Wheel.

apparently i have changed my look, this is the new me.

its nice to meet you.

wizard of Oz day.

leahs wide array of ps2 games.

(notice she ONLY has "singstar" or "harry potter", it made me question why im still friends with her :P )

Penrith's own little bondi beach @ the regatta centre.

the list.

so it was a few days ago that i came back from camp.

i guess since then, not a lot has changed.. but thats what I want to change.

i think to most people, my change wont be visible, because most of this change will be effective in my personal life.

and lately ive been feeling the difference. Its refreshing. 

now i have a list.  

this list is of all the people that think i have offended one way or another as far back as i can remember.

just like Earl, i going to go down the list and right my past wrongs no matter how confronting they may be.

yeahp, lets do this .

its a start.

well, the day has come.

i told myself, that had the time come when my life would begin on a new track, that would be the time i would start a blog.

Now; here i am, nine days away from the start of wesley and fourteen days away from the start of tafe.

before i start, to get things straight..

i may not blog everyday (but if i do, i assume this is just a phase). On lucky days you might get two blogs. Some days may consist of long blogs, others may be a line, a paragraph or picture, who knows at this point.

next, my blogs may be very personal some days, and complete rubbish the next.

and lastly, to prove that these blogs are for me personally and not to impress or entertain an audience; i will not tell anyone about the existence of my blog until i feel the need. 

now that thats done..

welcome to my mind.